What happen to me?

I'm not update my blog few days already. I don't know what happen to me. I don't have mood to update it even though I log in to my blog everyday. Recently I have received good news but seem like I'm not happy for it. The good news that I mention actually give me a problem. A big problem for me. I'm going back to working life again! Normally if we attended an interview we will hope for the job right? And if the company offer us a job we should happy because that is a successful result that we are waiting for. For me going back to working life is like going to held. LOL!! I'm still headache with my children problem. Who will looking after them. Where should I put them after I start work. 2 more weeks to solve this problem. I'm will start working after Depavali. I was thinking want to hire a maid but I'm scared with my past experience. I'm not worried about my daughter because I can send her to day care but a big problem to my son. I can't send him to day care.. he really need personal assistant. Haiyooo.... the whole day I'm thinking about this. What should I do???? I don't want to ask help from my mum or mum in law. They help me a lot and my mum is not feeling well now. I can't disturb them. I prayed to the god.. may god bless me. I hope I'll find a good solution to this problem.